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One big milestone

Posted by wendyn on 7/29/01 at 17:51 (054713)

I wasn't sure which board to put this on - so it ended up here.

Some of you know that 2 years ago I could hardly walk at all. Making dinner was excruciating - I had to perch on a bar stool. I couldn't walk farter than a block or two at most - and even that was awful. Shopping was impossible, and I couldn't even take my son to the park. I honestly believed that I was going to end up in a wheel chair.

It's been a long haul. I will never be completely better - the condition I have is chronic and degenerative (progressive arch collapse/flat feet/PF/TTS/PTTD)- but I've come a long way. I have not had surgery - all my progress has been due to lifestyle modification (no more aerobics or running), rest, decent orthotics, birks, yoga, acupuncture, massage, maybe B12 and a lot of time.

I kept one big goal in mind the last two years - and that was to go hiking in the mountains again. Of all the things I've given up - that one has been the most painful loss.

Well - it wasn't Mt. Everest - but we did make it through a two hour hike up through Johnston's canyon this morning. It was beautiful out, and well worth the two year wait. My feet made it reasonably well. I had some difficulty with some of the uneven ground, and I regretted not bringing a walking stick or cane for balance. Next time I will definetely bring one along. Husband just about drove me nuts for the first half hour. Every five minutes he kept saying 'How are your feet?' It got to the point that if he just glanced at me I said 'FINE!'. He eventually made some comment that I wouldn't tell him anyway and he gave up asking. I only had to ask him to slow down once at the end, we really took our time anyway.

I wanted to offer a word of encouragement for those of you who still aren't able to see any light at the end of the tunnel. Set your goals and keep working towards them. They might take longer to achieve than what you plan, and they may have to be scaled down - but those rare accomplishments are what keep you getting out of bed every morning.

I am going to sip a well deserved glass of wine with my neighbors. I will probably give my feet a little ice, a much needed (and deserved) pedicure, and a little pat of appreciation later. Here's hoping that the price for this won't be too bad - but I think it was worth it anyway.

Re: Congratulations!!!

Carmen H on 7/29/01 at 17:56 (054717)

Good for you!!!! What an accomplishment and what resilience you must have to strive and achieve! Thanks for sharing that wonderful positive story.
Keep posting and keep us all 'posted'!

Re: One big milestone

Nancy N on 7/29/01 at 18:00 (054719)

Wendy, I am so happy for you!!! I do hope you haven't overdone it, or that if you have, that the consequences are minor. Good for you!!!

Re: I am so happy for u ,

Tammie on 7/29/01 at 18:42 (054723)

Dear wendyn, The sun has finally shined for you!!! You are a inspiration to others and I am so very happy that you got to enjoy a pleasure that has been taken from you for such a long time! I will keep fingers crossed for u that you will not have to endure to much pain and this might be the rainbow you have been waiting for no matter how long it may last!!! May you always be blessed with the memories of the triump of getting closer to your dreams and that you may get many more of those dreams back! Were pulling for u!!!! Take care and sleep well and dream of those mountains! You got over the first, now go for the second! Hugs to u and best luck!

Re: One big milestone

JudyS on 7/29/01 at 19:21 (054728)

Wendy, I was just wondering how your hike went when I saw you've already posted about it. Words cannot express how truly happy I am for you - and proud of you too. As a highly contributive member of this board, and now wonderful role-model, you deserve tons and tons of kudos - way to go, girl!

Re: Wendy.....an idea-

JudyS on 7/29/01 at 19:24 (054729)

would you post that Webshots website here so everyone can see the photos of the canyon you hiked in? It's very beautiful.

Re: Wendy.....an idea-

Beverly on 7/29/01 at 19:52 (054734)

Wendy,

This is encouraging! You must feel on top of the world. My most missed activity is going to the mall. The day I can spend even one hour walking through the mall minus the electric scooter, I will be elated!
Way to go!
Beverly

Re: The slide show

wendyn on 7/29/01 at 20:49 (054739)

http://community.webshots.com/album/8159247HDxATFhdVL

You can run a slide show from this link. I did take pictures as well but they are not developed. Webshots is incorrect though - this canyon is not in Jasper national park - it is Banff national park.

We saw several elk (close enough to actually hear one chewing-stayed in the car) mountain goats, mountain sheep and lots of squirrels (one very nervy one who actually crawled up on my back to take a better look at my sandwich). Also one frantic lost American tourist on a bike. There were lots of other people in the Canyon - but these were the only interesting ones.

Re: congrats!!

elliott on 7/29/01 at 21:52 (054742)

Really happy for you! And don't accept that degenerative stuff as gospel. They can't know for sure. Sometimes exercises, luck or even miracles can do wonders. And each of the things you mention do have potential surgical cures. Funny, I have or had just about every ailment you list if you strike out the word 'degenerative'. Think positive and you won't be a 'degenerate'. Really hope you can keep on hiking.

Re: Back to elliot

wendyn on 7/29/01 at 23:07 (054746)

Thanks elliot - the degenerative part I guess relates to the fact that my condition is progressive - and causing more damage as time goes on. I've unfortunately been at this since I was 11 - and it's been a slow but fairly steady continuation. You could add to my 'list' - I've also had a dorsal bunion removed (when I was 23), forefoot varus (both feet), shortened achilles tendons and gastroc muscles, a diagnosis (well a few) of RSD - and one of the most noticably weird lower legs you've seen. (Only one) From the knee up - my right leg looks pretty normal -but if you look down - my right foot points out quite far to keep my knee in line. Both feet have it a bit - but my right is much worse - has the beautiful effect of making me walk like a duck. Most people do not notice the actual twist (it's called a tibial tortion) - they just think I walk funny. My right foot is the one that is much worse - and the very bad gait I have is real hard on a post tib tendon. When I walk I do not really roll over the top of my foot - I roll of the inside.

I don't tell you this to try impress you - only to help explain that I have come to accept that it is the _sum_ of all these things that cannot be 'fixed' - short of bionic legs and feet for me (I suspect only the over 30 crowd will know what I mean).

While somthing like a TTS release may be possible - in my case it may make things worse. There's no way to fix most of the structural deformities - short of an actual reconstruction. This may be an eventual solution - but I understand it involves fusions and other nasty things that just aren't going to last another 50 years (I'm only 32). Beleive me - I've seen an awful lot of doctors, surgeons, specialists, physio therapists etc - and no one has been able to suggest that this is 'fixable' or likely to go away.

For me - it's more of a matter of making the best of things and dealing with what is wrong - rather than searching for a cure or a fix that just isn't around right now (still waiting for those bionic legs)!

Thus - the hike. I could be waiting forever for my feet to get better than they are now. They may improve -they may not, but I can't sit around waiting. It's not likely that I did any irreversable harm - and if anything I may be in more pain for a while than I would have otherwise. I can live with that. Also, there's a fine line between what may be good for you physically (good for the feet) and bad for you emotionally. If I'm happy and relaxed from a hike in the mountains - who's to say that it may not help provide some of that 'placebo' effect that's been discussed here lately. There is a strong link between emotional state and physical symptoms. For me - the emotional trauma of giving up everything I enjoy would be worse than some of the physical trauma for having a great day.

Have a nice night - I'm exhausted!

Re: One big milestone

Laurie R on 7/30/01 at 00:06 (054750)

Dear Wendy ,
I can not think of another person that deserves this more than you .... I am more than happy for you .My goodness Wendy I can remember all you have been through ,and through it all you have ALWAYS been there for us ... I would like to thank you from the bottom of my heart.. You are truly a sweetheart .... Thank you again for sharing your wonderful hike with us... I hope you can have many more....

Laurie R

Re: One big milestone

Max K on 7/30/01 at 00:43 (054752)

Hello Wendyn,

I've had PF for 3 years. I thought I had a problem, then I read your story, that put things in their proper perspective in a hurry. RSD on top of all that? Wow. If you haven't already, check out Dr Hooshmand's RSD puzzles at rsdrx.com. I admire your attitude and courage.

Re: Three cheers (at least) for Wendy!

Julie on 7/30/01 at 02:31 (054758)

Wendy, hiking in the mountains is my greatest joy too, and the thought of possibly never being able to do it again was the worst thing about getting PF. I really AM happy for you! And I hope this was the first of many, many joyful hikes.

Re: This belongs on the Success Stories Board!!

Julie on 7/30/01 at 02:33 (054759)

EOM!

Re: Good deal !

BrianG on 7/30/01 at 09:39 (054790)

Hi Wendy,

I know exactlly how you feel about that mountain climb. You are worried about damaging your feet by this extra activity. I feel the same way everytime I go bass fishing. I have been lucky so far, I have always returned to something like 'normal' a few days after fishing. I think you should continue to get out when you can, just don't forget your walking stick next time :*) There are a couple mountains near me that I'd like to climb again. It'll never happen at the rate I'm going, so I settle for fishing. It's important that I get outside for fresh air now and then. I'm sure most of you feel the same way. Good luck

BCG

Re: Good deal !

wendyn on 7/30/01 at 19:47 (054863)

For those who remain interested - no significant increase in pain today (maybe a little last night but not bad).

Tomorrow remains the true test - so many of us have found that if we're going to pay the price for an activity it starts somewhere between the 24 and 48 hour mark. If anything - I notice some tightness in my calves and achilles - nothing that's causing me any great stress though. My feet are still a normal color - not puffy or red (this is almost always a real indication of how they feel).

I remain...cautiously optimistic.

Re: Knot a problem any more?

wendyn on 7/30/01 at 19:49 (054864)

p.s.

Weird - just noticed that those knots in my shins have disappeared.

I haven't been on the bike much the last 2 weeks.

Things that make you go hmmmm.

Re: Good deal !

tammie on 7/30/01 at 20:45 (054866)

I am praying for u wendyn I hope it says good for u!!! And yes i am glad u told us the progress!

Re: Good deal . . . Very interested

Glenn X on 7/30/01 at hrmin (054867)

Wendy,

My recent goals have been . . .
..1).Walk across the room.
..2).Play ring around the rosy with my granddaughter.
..3).Navigate the grocery store and do my own shopping.

Pretty modest, eh?

Your messages of the past couple of days have me dreaming again.
..1).Walk across some wilderness. We have wonderful hiking in the Pacific N.W. I've been missing this enormously.
..2).Play airplane with my granddaughter, and anything else she wants to play.
..3).Navigate . . . well, when I close in on the first two, I'll ponder the third, but it will be more than I've been imagining for some time.

Thank you.

Re: Good deal . . . Very interested

wendyn on 7/30/01 at 22:10 (054879)

Glenn - I may have asked you this before (mind like a steel sieve) - where do you live?

Re: This belongs on the Success Stories Board!!

wendyn on 7/30/01 at 22:17 (054881)

I dunno - don't want to jinx myself. Let me give it a week or so - make sure that I really did get a way with it!!!!!!!

Re: Good deal . . . Very interested

nancy s. on 7/30/01 at 22:29 (054884)

Glenn, if you can play ring around the rosy with your granddaughter, i think you're doing pretty darn well! i still remember playing ring around the rosy with my niece at 4 months into pf and thinking i was going to die. but it was STILL worth it! for two years i had to keep reminding myself to live despite the pain, and to take risks like wendy just did, and make calculated trade-offs. i actually wish i'd done more of it during the nightmare -- it helps take care of the spirit, which can suffer just as much as the feet when they're doing their pf thing.
nancy

Re: Good deal . . . Wendy~Glenn~Nancy S

Donna M on 7/30/01 at 23:25 (054888)

To Wendy~~it is great to hear of your achievements and I think it is wonderful!! To hear all you have been through gives the rest of us hope and reaffirms our faith!!
Glenn and Nancy~~I fear my feet will never heal because I won't quit doing things with my grandchildren!! They will only be young for a short while so I will probably just have to suffer through! And Nancy, I will remember what you said about 'wishing you had done more', because if I keep on doing like I am with them, if I should get worse at some point in time, then I will know I didn't miss anything along the way!!

Re: Success story? I'm sure of it

Julie on 7/31/01 at 01:52 (054897)

Wendy, it's Tuesday now (at least it is here) - so, how are you today, please?

I'm VERY, as opposed to cautiously, optimistic for you. Anyone would have tight calves after two hours up-and-down hiking - par for the course and probably not a harbinger of worse.

But I await your today's report eagerly.

Nice to hear those little shin knots have gone. I meant to tell you when you originally posted about them - I had something similar in my biking days (long gone - diabolical London traffic and deadly - unfixed - potholes finally put me off).

Re: One big milestone

Kathy G on 7/31/01 at 09:38 (054937)

Thank you, Wendyn, and congratulations to you! You give those of us who are just beginning the journey to recovery a great deal of hope and ispiration! My goal isn't nearly as lofty as yours (no pun intended!) - I just want to be able to walk a few times a week for exercise. There are days when I think I'll never be able to do it again, but stories like yours are so encouraging!

Re: Good deal . . . Very interested

Glenn X on 7/31/01 at hrmin (054953)

Wendy: Live on the outskirts of Portland Oregon, short drive from the Columbia Gorge, the Cascades and the Pacific. Wonderful!, outdoorsy part of the world. I'm guessing from your story you're not far from Banff. Course 'not far' in the west can be hundreds of miles.

Nancy and Donna: Nieces and grandkids and other little people are treasures that constantly invoke the possible moreso than the not possible. I'm not actually up to ring around the rosy yet, but I do great 'horsy' galloping around the living-room on all fours. Granddaughter (2) also loves to sit in my lap and be read to, and there's not a sweeter moment in the world.

I'm sure I could push it, take more risks, but when I've done so under my own guidance I invariably end up pushing more backward than forward. Haven't learned enough self-awareness or self-discipline, or enough about PF. Under the direction of an exceptional doctor (who I am seeing later this week) I may be pushing more.

I am determined to eventually share walks in the forest with you know who, so am equally determined (now) to approach this taking informed, calculated, and therapeutic risks. In the meantime my glass stays near full, and compared to most, I am exceedingly blessed.

I'll remember your encouragements to occasionally stretch my comfort levels though. Like Wendy pushing through Banff, we eventually need to control our feet rather than have them controlling us.

Re: Great news!

Cynthia D on 8/01/01 at 11:13 (055069)

Wendy this is wonderful news! I hope you are still great today! Your pal, Cynthia

Re: Congratulations!!!

Carmen H on 7/29/01 at 17:56 (054717)

Good for you!!!! What an accomplishment and what resilience you must have to strive and achieve! Thanks for sharing that wonderful positive story.
Keep posting and keep us all 'posted'!

Re: One big milestone

Nancy N on 7/29/01 at 18:00 (054719)

Wendy, I am so happy for you!!! I do hope you haven't overdone it, or that if you have, that the consequences are minor. Good for you!!!

Re: I am so happy for u ,

Tammie on 7/29/01 at 18:42 (054723)

Dear wendyn, The sun has finally shined for you!!! You are a inspiration to others and I am so very happy that you got to enjoy a pleasure that has been taken from you for such a long time! I will keep fingers crossed for u that you will not have to endure to much pain and this might be the rainbow you have been waiting for no matter how long it may last!!! May you always be blessed with the memories of the triump of getting closer to your dreams and that you may get many more of those dreams back! Were pulling for u!!!! Take care and sleep well and dream of those mountains! You got over the first, now go for the second! Hugs to u and best luck!

Re: One big milestone

JudyS on 7/29/01 at 19:21 (054728)

Wendy, I was just wondering how your hike went when I saw you've already posted about it. Words cannot express how truly happy I am for you - and proud of you too. As a highly contributive member of this board, and now wonderful role-model, you deserve tons and tons of kudos - way to go, girl!

Re: Wendy.....an idea-

JudyS on 7/29/01 at 19:24 (054729)

would you post that Webshots website here so everyone can see the photos of the canyon you hiked in? It's very beautiful.

Re: Wendy.....an idea-

Beverly on 7/29/01 at 19:52 (054734)

Wendy,

This is encouraging! You must feel on top of the world. My most missed activity is going to the mall. The day I can spend even one hour walking through the mall minus the electric scooter, I will be elated!
Way to go!
Beverly

Re: The slide show

wendyn on 7/29/01 at 20:49 (054739)

http://community.webshots.com/album/8159247HDxATFhdVL

You can run a slide show from this link. I did take pictures as well but they are not developed. Webshots is incorrect though - this canyon is not in Jasper national park - it is Banff national park.

We saw several elk (close enough to actually hear one chewing-stayed in the car) mountain goats, mountain sheep and lots of squirrels (one very nervy one who actually crawled up on my back to take a better look at my sandwich). Also one frantic lost American tourist on a bike. There were lots of other people in the Canyon - but these were the only interesting ones.

Re: congrats!!

elliott on 7/29/01 at 21:52 (054742)

Really happy for you! And don't accept that degenerative stuff as gospel. They can't know for sure. Sometimes exercises, luck or even miracles can do wonders. And each of the things you mention do have potential surgical cures. Funny, I have or had just about every ailment you list if you strike out the word 'degenerative'. Think positive and you won't be a 'degenerate'. Really hope you can keep on hiking.

Re: Back to elliot

wendyn on 7/29/01 at 23:07 (054746)

Thanks elliot - the degenerative part I guess relates to the fact that my condition is progressive - and causing more damage as time goes on. I've unfortunately been at this since I was 11 - and it's been a slow but fairly steady continuation. You could add to my 'list' - I've also had a dorsal bunion removed (when I was 23), forefoot varus (both feet), shortened achilles tendons and gastroc muscles, a diagnosis (well a few) of RSD - and one of the most noticably weird lower legs you've seen. (Only one) From the knee up - my right leg looks pretty normal -but if you look down - my right foot points out quite far to keep my knee in line. Both feet have it a bit - but my right is much worse - has the beautiful effect of making me walk like a duck. Most people do not notice the actual twist (it's called a tibial tortion) - they just think I walk funny. My right foot is the one that is much worse - and the very bad gait I have is real hard on a post tib tendon. When I walk I do not really roll over the top of my foot - I roll of the inside.

I don't tell you this to try impress you - only to help explain that I have come to accept that it is the _sum_ of all these things that cannot be 'fixed' - short of bionic legs and feet for me (I suspect only the over 30 crowd will know what I mean).

While somthing like a TTS release may be possible - in my case it may make things worse. There's no way to fix most of the structural deformities - short of an actual reconstruction. This may be an eventual solution - but I understand it involves fusions and other nasty things that just aren't going to last another 50 years (I'm only 32). Beleive me - I've seen an awful lot of doctors, surgeons, specialists, physio therapists etc - and no one has been able to suggest that this is 'fixable' or likely to go away.

For me - it's more of a matter of making the best of things and dealing with what is wrong - rather than searching for a cure or a fix that just isn't around right now (still waiting for those bionic legs)!

Thus - the hike. I could be waiting forever for my feet to get better than they are now. They may improve -they may not, but I can't sit around waiting. It's not likely that I did any irreversable harm - and if anything I may be in more pain for a while than I would have otherwise. I can live with that. Also, there's a fine line between what may be good for you physically (good for the feet) and bad for you emotionally. If I'm happy and relaxed from a hike in the mountains - who's to say that it may not help provide some of that 'placebo' effect that's been discussed here lately. There is a strong link between emotional state and physical symptoms. For me - the emotional trauma of giving up everything I enjoy would be worse than some of the physical trauma for having a great day.

Have a nice night - I'm exhausted!

Re: One big milestone

Laurie R on 7/30/01 at 00:06 (054750)

Dear Wendy ,
I can not think of another person that deserves this more than you .... I am more than happy for you .My goodness Wendy I can remember all you have been through ,and through it all you have ALWAYS been there for us ... I would like to thank you from the bottom of my heart.. You are truly a sweetheart .... Thank you again for sharing your wonderful hike with us... I hope you can have many more....

Laurie R

Re: One big milestone

Max K on 7/30/01 at 00:43 (054752)

Hello Wendyn,

I've had PF for 3 years. I thought I had a problem, then I read your story, that put things in their proper perspective in a hurry. RSD on top of all that? Wow. If you haven't already, check out Dr Hooshmand's RSD puzzles at rsdrx.com. I admire your attitude and courage.

Re: Three cheers (at least) for Wendy!

Julie on 7/30/01 at 02:31 (054758)

Wendy, hiking in the mountains is my greatest joy too, and the thought of possibly never being able to do it again was the worst thing about getting PF. I really AM happy for you! And I hope this was the first of many, many joyful hikes.

Re: This belongs on the Success Stories Board!!

Julie on 7/30/01 at 02:33 (054759)

EOM!

Re: Good deal !

BrianG on 7/30/01 at 09:39 (054790)

Hi Wendy,

I know exactlly how you feel about that mountain climb. You are worried about damaging your feet by this extra activity. I feel the same way everytime I go bass fishing. I have been lucky so far, I have always returned to something like 'normal' a few days after fishing. I think you should continue to get out when you can, just don't forget your walking stick next time :*) There are a couple mountains near me that I'd like to climb again. It'll never happen at the rate I'm going, so I settle for fishing. It's important that I get outside for fresh air now and then. I'm sure most of you feel the same way. Good luck

BCG

Re: Good deal !

wendyn on 7/30/01 at 19:47 (054863)

For those who remain interested - no significant increase in pain today (maybe a little last night but not bad).

Tomorrow remains the true test - so many of us have found that if we're going to pay the price for an activity it starts somewhere between the 24 and 48 hour mark. If anything - I notice some tightness in my calves and achilles - nothing that's causing me any great stress though. My feet are still a normal color - not puffy or red (this is almost always a real indication of how they feel).

I remain...cautiously optimistic.

Re: Knot a problem any more?

wendyn on 7/30/01 at 19:49 (054864)

p.s.

Weird - just noticed that those knots in my shins have disappeared.

I haven't been on the bike much the last 2 weeks.

Things that make you go hmmmm.

Re: Good deal !

tammie on 7/30/01 at 20:45 (054866)

I am praying for u wendyn I hope it says good for u!!! And yes i am glad u told us the progress!

Re: Good deal . . . Very interested

Glenn X on 7/30/01 at hrmin (054867)

Wendy,

My recent goals have been . . .
..1).Walk across the room.
..2).Play ring around the rosy with my granddaughter.
..3).Navigate the grocery store and do my own shopping.

Pretty modest, eh?

Your messages of the past couple of days have me dreaming again.
..1).Walk across some wilderness. We have wonderful hiking in the Pacific N.W. I've been missing this enormously.
..2).Play airplane with my granddaughter, and anything else she wants to play.
..3).Navigate . . . well, when I close in on the first two, I'll ponder the third, but it will be more than I've been imagining for some time.

Thank you.

Re: Good deal . . . Very interested

wendyn on 7/30/01 at 22:10 (054879)

Glenn - I may have asked you this before (mind like a steel sieve) - where do you live?

Re: This belongs on the Success Stories Board!!

wendyn on 7/30/01 at 22:17 (054881)

I dunno - don't want to jinx myself. Let me give it a week or so - make sure that I really did get a way with it!!!!!!!

Re: Good deal . . . Very interested

nancy s. on 7/30/01 at 22:29 (054884)

Glenn, if you can play ring around the rosy with your granddaughter, i think you're doing pretty darn well! i still remember playing ring around the rosy with my niece at 4 months into pf and thinking i was going to die. but it was STILL worth it! for two years i had to keep reminding myself to live despite the pain, and to take risks like wendy just did, and make calculated trade-offs. i actually wish i'd done more of it during the nightmare -- it helps take care of the spirit, which can suffer just as much as the feet when they're doing their pf thing.
nancy

Re: Good deal . . . Wendy~Glenn~Nancy S

Donna M on 7/30/01 at 23:25 (054888)

To Wendy~~it is great to hear of your achievements and I think it is wonderful!! To hear all you have been through gives the rest of us hope and reaffirms our faith!!
Glenn and Nancy~~I fear my feet will never heal because I won't quit doing things with my grandchildren!! They will only be young for a short while so I will probably just have to suffer through! And Nancy, I will remember what you said about 'wishing you had done more', because if I keep on doing like I am with them, if I should get worse at some point in time, then I will know I didn't miss anything along the way!!

Re: Success story? I'm sure of it

Julie on 7/31/01 at 01:52 (054897)

Wendy, it's Tuesday now (at least it is here) - so, how are you today, please?

I'm VERY, as opposed to cautiously, optimistic for you. Anyone would have tight calves after two hours up-and-down hiking - par for the course and probably not a harbinger of worse.

But I await your today's report eagerly.

Nice to hear those little shin knots have gone. I meant to tell you when you originally posted about them - I had something similar in my biking days (long gone - diabolical London traffic and deadly - unfixed - potholes finally put me off).

Re: One big milestone

Kathy G on 7/31/01 at 09:38 (054937)

Thank you, Wendyn, and congratulations to you! You give those of us who are just beginning the journey to recovery a great deal of hope and ispiration! My goal isn't nearly as lofty as yours (no pun intended!) - I just want to be able to walk a few times a week for exercise. There are days when I think I'll never be able to do it again, but stories like yours are so encouraging!

Re: Good deal . . . Very interested

Glenn X on 7/31/01 at hrmin (054953)

Wendy: Live on the outskirts of Portland Oregon, short drive from the Columbia Gorge, the Cascades and the Pacific. Wonderful!, outdoorsy part of the world. I'm guessing from your story you're not far from Banff. Course 'not far' in the west can be hundreds of miles.

Nancy and Donna: Nieces and grandkids and other little people are treasures that constantly invoke the possible moreso than the not possible. I'm not actually up to ring around the rosy yet, but I do great 'horsy' galloping around the living-room on all fours. Granddaughter (2) also loves to sit in my lap and be read to, and there's not a sweeter moment in the world.

I'm sure I could push it, take more risks, but when I've done so under my own guidance I invariably end up pushing more backward than forward. Haven't learned enough self-awareness or self-discipline, or enough about PF. Under the direction of an exceptional doctor (who I am seeing later this week) I may be pushing more.

I am determined to eventually share walks in the forest with you know who, so am equally determined (now) to approach this taking informed, calculated, and therapeutic risks. In the meantime my glass stays near full, and compared to most, I am exceedingly blessed.

I'll remember your encouragements to occasionally stretch my comfort levels though. Like Wendy pushing through Banff, we eventually need to control our feet rather than have them controlling us.

Re: Great news!

Cynthia D on 8/01/01 at 11:13 (055069)

Wendy this is wonderful news! I hope you are still great today! Your pal, Cynthia