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Depressed, fustrated and fed up!!!

Posted by yasmin on 5/21/02 at 13:11 (084776)

Can anyone tell me what they do (or think of) when they have one of these days!!

I have suffered from PF for about year now, although the steroid shots have taken away most of the pain I still get very sore and achey, particularly in the arch of my right foot!!

I haven't tired anything else yet, expect for ice, which does work and the odd painkiller.

I am soooooooo fed up with this, please tell me 'all is not lost!'

I want to be able to walk again and not think twice about it, Pf isn't only a physical problem, its affecting my mental health as well!! I've shed bucketfuls of tears over this, I need some positive energy!

Sorry to whine and moan!!

yasmin

Re: Depressed, fustrated and fed up!!!

dave on 5/21/02 at 13:31 (084778)

Hang in there,I havent been following your posts so i dont know your history.All i can say is that if you havent read scotts heel pain book then you should. I have suffered for almost five years. Myself and im sure alot of others on this site have been through everything to fix there plantar fasciitis. I have had many more setbacks than steps ahead in my battle. What works for me one day doesnt work the next. i can be pain free for a few days and go through h=== for a few weeks. Its always been that way for me. When i first had this i wasnt able to walk at all. I crawled around the house for months. i was forced to leave the job that i loved and i lost alot of my friends during all of this. i was treated for depression and the large amount of pain that i had. Im sure that you feel that know one understands but i can tell you that I DO! Im sure that most people on this site will say the same thing. We Care. I have finally been at a pain level that is very managable and i am looking to kick this by the end of the year. My pain level stayed at a 10 for more than a year. As the years have gone by the pain level has gone down. I recently had ESWT performed by doctor z and i am thrilled to say that my pain level has gone down alot. I am very surprised. Every doctor that i have ever seen wanted to sell me something or told me that they didnt understand why i was going through so much pain. My insurance wouldnt pay for the procedure so i saved up for eight months.

Re: Depressed, fustrated and fed up!!!

Carmen on 5/21/02 at 15:20 (084786)

Yasmin~

If that's all you've tried you have a lot of options...so start reading the heel pain book and trying combinations of conservtive treatment.
We'd all like to walk without thinking about it...but the stark reality is this. You have a painful condition that needs tender loving care....you should accept this and try your best to make it better...the bucket of tears will lessen with more acceptance and patience.
I too have had it a year and understand your fear and frustration. But you have a great deal of options to try....to take a deep breath.....and get started on other things. Education and understandinf your condition is KEY to getting well.
Keep us posted on how you do!

Re: Depressed, fustrated and fed up!!!

Suzanne D on 5/21/02 at 16:12 (084789)

I understand full well what you mean, Yasmin! I, too, have had PF for almost a year now, and it seems that the worst part is the unrelenting nature of this condition! And, as others have written, the fact that you make progress and then have set-backs is also disheartening.

But, as others have written already to you, read The Heelpain Book on this site. Try taping (Read the thread below this one.). That's easy to do and can make a real difference. Read about shoes that may help you.

The more you do to take positive steps to help yourself, the better you will feel. That will give you hope which is in itself a great thing!

What do I do when I have 'one of these days'? Post here, and read others' posts! It really is helpful to not feel alone and to realize others DO understand and that you're not going crazy!

Good luck to you. I think you have a very pretty name, by the way! (I'm a teacher, so it seems I always notice names.) :-)

Suzanne

Re: Depressed, fustrated and fed up!!!

Ed Davis, DPM on 5/21/02 at 19:16 (084810)

Depression often sets in due to the perception of not being able to get control of a situation. Dave, CArmen and Suzanne have provided good advice. There is a lot that can be done to cure plantar fascia but you must take action.
Ed

Re: Depressed, fustrated and fed up!!!

Rich on 5/21/02 at 21:32 (084821)

Hello Yasmin! First of all, coming here when I'm hurting or depressed (well actually, it's usually both!) is the best thing for me.

If you have been suffering for a year...please try the recommendations in the heel pain book. I can't imagine you've only had shots and icing.

I have suffered for the last year also...first my left foot which is now at a pain level of .5-1 and then my right foot which is extremely resistant to ALL conservative treatments! I've done physical therapy, one cortizone shot per foot, OTC shoe inserts, stretching, icing, night splints, cam walker- both on and off crutches...and on and on.

I guess knowing that I am determined to use conservative measures instead of surgery has helped me stick to my regime. I dealt with the depression without medication (I have two small children) and it does seem to get better since I've come here on a daily basis. It helps to have people (well, friends!) to talk to, who understand what you are dealing with and exactly how you are feeling. I don't even try to explain it to non-sufferers anymore, I just come here instead.

Please try to avoid repetitive injections, they can cause a false sense of improvement and weaken the fascia or cause a rupture. Since the onset of PF for me, the computer has been my best friend...constantly searching for the BIG FIX!

Please come here when you need a boost, we are all in the same boat and try to boost each other back up! If you listen to your feet and follow some of the advice here, depending on the severity of your pain, you will walk again. Ignoring the problem will only make it worse.

I have recently graduated to a few short spells in Betulas after a long year only in my NB's! I consider this a milestone for me and am happy as a lark!!

Keep us posted on your progress or question us away!! Looking forward to your posts....

Richelle

Re: Depressed, fustrated and fed up!!!

Laurie R on 5/21/02 at 21:34 (084823)

Hi Yasmin , I also wanted to say that you have such a beautiful name ... Also we can all relate on how you are feeling. PF is very hard to deal with , especially when you are having problems walking and are in so much pain ... We are all here for support , we understand ....Rememeber most people do get cured and it can go away ....

My very best to you always , Laurie R

Re: Depressed, fustrated and fed up!!!

David A. on 5/22/02 at 08:41 (084845)

Yasmin, read the 'Thank God For Tape' post that is just below yours. Read my original post and the responses, includingmy response to Rich's question. It might work for you. Good luck. David A.

Re: Depressed, fustrated and fed up!!!

Necee on 5/22/02 at 11:56 (084866)

You have been given some great advice here, so please continue to post and read all that you can, being educated on PF is the first step toward healing.
There IS light at the end of this long...long tunnel. Please remain positive, and don't give up on hope that you will improve.
We are all here for you.....
Happy trails to you...
Necee

Re: Depressed, fustrated and fed up!!!

nancy s. on 5/22/02 at 15:11 (084884)

dear yasmin,

others have given you great advice here. i'd like to focus a bit on the 'mental health' aspect of dealing with pf, which you mentioned.

the worst of my foot problems lasted for about two years, and now that i feel i have a life again, i often think about what those years taught me. i think there are lessons that will take a long time for me to realize fully, but maybe it'll help you in some way if i tell you things i wish now i'd done differently -- and hope and believe i would do differently if i ever go through anything similar again.

i would work hard to do the following, in order to avoid the deep depression i fell into:

* refuse to isolate myself in my pain and despair, by having friends over, calling them on the phone, confiding more in my close friends but also forcing myself to focus on their lives more too.

* get out more, even if only to sit in the yard -- but also go to more concerts (yes, it was hard to get in and out of the concert hall, but once there i was fine and the uplifted feeling afterward was well worth it); go out for pizza or whatever, just to be out and feel a part of the world; and whatever else is fun for you or has meaning for you.

* use the downtime at home (or resting-of-feet time) in ways that would keep my spirit feeling alive (doing artwork, listening to music, playing the piano, reading good books, whatever makes you keep your hope and heart open and looking forward).

* make sure that i continued to get dressed every day and not let the basic things go because of a feeling of 'what's the point.' there WAS a point -- but i let a lot of things go and it just encouraged me to isolate myself more.

* get professional help for the depression that slowly but steadily ate me up inside. i did finally get help, but i waited an awfully long time to do it -- too long. antidepressant medication was a beginning, and then therapy and a therapy group did me a world of good over a period of time.

in sum, in the face of losing control over my feet and their impact on my life, a focus on what i couldn't do took over. if i had it to do over, i would try everything i could think of to focus on the things i could still do and then continue to do them -- even if some days i didn't feel like it.

yasmin, i hope this helps you in some way. i can tell you, 'all is not lost!' i believe it with all my heart, because i thought that too, and it wasn't true. i don't for one second believe it's true for you either. all is not lost. keep your life going in every foot-friendly way you can, and keep exploring to find what works for you and the recovery of your feet. it takes patience, but you will get past the worst of this one way or another.

nancy

Re: Good points, Nancy! (eom)

Suzanne D on 5/22/02 at 18:48 (084910)

,

Re: Good points, Nancy! (eom)

nancy s. on 5/22/02 at 20:55 (084936)

thanks, suzanne -- i appreciate your points too!

Re: You have a beautiful name

Tammie on 5/23/02 at 07:53 (084967)

I am reading your post , and am happy so many friends here responded to you. This is the great part of the board. When you feel down and like there is nothing else someone here will offer some support along with some very good advice!!

Take your time our friend accept our offer of friendship and our shoulders to lean on and cry out your frustrations! All of us has been there at one time or another and it is a part of learning about this chronic foot deal! Dont be sorry dont be frightened . Ask all the questions you like and take the time you need to relax and allow yourself to let go the frustration enough to look and hear the advice many will give you! YES frustration and depression seem to go along with any chronic pain condition , you have permission to feel sad or frustrated you have permission to seek and recieve medications to help with this as it is important to your recovering. It will help you calmly better understand what is happening in your life and allow you some rest. I offer a hug in hopes that you recieve comfort from it.

Re: Depressed, fustrated and fed up!!! - Thanks to all

yasmin on 5/23/02 at 14:24 (085002)

Dear everyone,

Thank you for your advice and support, I appreciate it greatly.

Its really hard for me because I have a a 2year old to look after and a demanding masters degree course. I feel really isolated, all my friends and family are really fed up with me because they don't understand how difficult it is to deal with PF.

I am trying to stay positive, I have an appointment next week with a clinic that specialises in sports injuries including PF, so I am hoping for some help from them (exercises, advice on fooetwear etc).

Nancy - thanks for your advice for combating depression, I am going to try my best not to sink into darkness.

I hope all of you have a successful recovery and will soon be able to enjoy a full and active life, because u all deserve it!

thanks again

Yasmin

Re: Depressed, fustrated and fed up!!! - Thanks to all

nancy s. on 5/23/02 at 16:34 (085012)

hi yasmin,

you have a lot on your plate. hang in there!

almost everyone here has experienced what you're experiencing with friends and family. people who haven't been through this just have no idea of the impact on a person's life. also, it's difficult for people who haven't experienced any kind of chronic pain to understand what it does to one's outlook. people here do understand, so please stick around. i can't tell you how much this board and the people on it have meant to me throughout the ordeal. i don't know where i'd be now without them.

have you tried having family and close friends read scott's heel pain book, or parts of it that are especially relevant to what you're going through? it wasn't until my usually understanding husband read it that he really started to Get It and realize why my life had become so difficult. it made a world of difference. (thanks again, scott!)

i hope you have great luck with the sports medicine docs. after trying my pcp, a podiatrist (he was bad, certainly not all of them are!), and an osteopath, it was finally a sports med doc who first got me onto a good healing path. it took time (i had six months of physical therapy, for starters), but he was great and just what i needed. i hope the same for you.

nancy

Re: Depressed, fustrated and fed up!!!

Lisa G on 5/23/02 at 18:22 (085028)

hi yasmin,
i know how you feel totally! i don't know what will work for you, as nothing has worked for me, i've had it 8 years...but there are a lot more things you can try! so keep trying things...even after all this time...and having tried everything except surg and eswt...i'm still working on finding something that works for me...so keep at it sweetie...

please feel free to email me if you need to vent...

lisa
(email removed)

Re: Depressed, fustrated and fed up!!!

dave on 5/21/02 at 13:31 (084778)

Hang in there,I havent been following your posts so i dont know your history.All i can say is that if you havent read scotts heel pain book then you should. I have suffered for almost five years. Myself and im sure alot of others on this site have been through everything to fix there plantar fasciitis. I have had many more setbacks than steps ahead in my battle. What works for me one day doesnt work the next. i can be pain free for a few days and go through h=== for a few weeks. Its always been that way for me. When i first had this i wasnt able to walk at all. I crawled around the house for months. i was forced to leave the job that i loved and i lost alot of my friends during all of this. i was treated for depression and the large amount of pain that i had. Im sure that you feel that know one understands but i can tell you that I DO! Im sure that most people on this site will say the same thing. We Care. I have finally been at a pain level that is very managable and i am looking to kick this by the end of the year. My pain level stayed at a 10 for more than a year. As the years have gone by the pain level has gone down. I recently had ESWT performed by doctor z and i am thrilled to say that my pain level has gone down alot. I am very surprised. Every doctor that i have ever seen wanted to sell me something or told me that they didnt understand why i was going through so much pain. My insurance wouldnt pay for the procedure so i saved up for eight months.

Re: Depressed, fustrated and fed up!!!

Carmen on 5/21/02 at 15:20 (084786)

Yasmin~

If that's all you've tried you have a lot of options...so start reading the heel pain book and trying combinations of conservtive treatment.
We'd all like to walk without thinking about it...but the stark reality is this. You have a painful condition that needs tender loving care....you should accept this and try your best to make it better...the bucket of tears will lessen with more acceptance and patience.
I too have had it a year and understand your fear and frustration. But you have a great deal of options to try....to take a deep breath.....and get started on other things. Education and understandinf your condition is KEY to getting well.
Keep us posted on how you do!

Re: Depressed, fustrated and fed up!!!

Suzanne D on 5/21/02 at 16:12 (084789)

I understand full well what you mean, Yasmin! I, too, have had PF for almost a year now, and it seems that the worst part is the unrelenting nature of this condition! And, as others have written, the fact that you make progress and then have set-backs is also disheartening.

But, as others have written already to you, read The Heelpain Book on this site. Try taping (Read the thread below this one.). That's easy to do and can make a real difference. Read about shoes that may help you.

The more you do to take positive steps to help yourself, the better you will feel. That will give you hope which is in itself a great thing!

What do I do when I have 'one of these days'? Post here, and read others' posts! It really is helpful to not feel alone and to realize others DO understand and that you're not going crazy!

Good luck to you. I think you have a very pretty name, by the way! (I'm a teacher, so it seems I always notice names.) :-)

Suzanne

Re: Depressed, fustrated and fed up!!!

Ed Davis, DPM on 5/21/02 at 19:16 (084810)

Depression often sets in due to the perception of not being able to get control of a situation. Dave, CArmen and Suzanne have provided good advice. There is a lot that can be done to cure plantar fascia but you must take action.
Ed

Re: Depressed, fustrated and fed up!!!

Rich on 5/21/02 at 21:32 (084821)

Hello Yasmin! First of all, coming here when I'm hurting or depressed (well actually, it's usually both!) is the best thing for me.

If you have been suffering for a year...please try the recommendations in the heel pain book. I can't imagine you've only had shots and icing.

I have suffered for the last year also...first my left foot which is now at a pain level of .5-1 and then my right foot which is extremely resistant to ALL conservative treatments! I've done physical therapy, one cortizone shot per foot, OTC shoe inserts, stretching, icing, night splints, cam walker- both on and off crutches...and on and on.

I guess knowing that I am determined to use conservative measures instead of surgery has helped me stick to my regime. I dealt with the depression without medication (I have two small children) and it does seem to get better since I've come here on a daily basis. It helps to have people (well, friends!) to talk to, who understand what you are dealing with and exactly how you are feeling. I don't even try to explain it to non-sufferers anymore, I just come here instead.

Please try to avoid repetitive injections, they can cause a false sense of improvement and weaken the fascia or cause a rupture. Since the onset of PF for me, the computer has been my best friend...constantly searching for the BIG FIX!

Please come here when you need a boost, we are all in the same boat and try to boost each other back up! If you listen to your feet and follow some of the advice here, depending on the severity of your pain, you will walk again. Ignoring the problem will only make it worse.

I have recently graduated to a few short spells in Betulas after a long year only in my NB's! I consider this a milestone for me and am happy as a lark!!

Keep us posted on your progress or question us away!! Looking forward to your posts....

Richelle

Re: Depressed, fustrated and fed up!!!

Laurie R on 5/21/02 at 21:34 (084823)

Hi Yasmin , I also wanted to say that you have such a beautiful name ... Also we can all relate on how you are feeling. PF is very hard to deal with , especially when you are having problems walking and are in so much pain ... We are all here for support , we understand ....Rememeber most people do get cured and it can go away ....

My very best to you always , Laurie R

Re: Depressed, fustrated and fed up!!!

David A. on 5/22/02 at 08:41 (084845)

Yasmin, read the 'Thank God For Tape' post that is just below yours. Read my original post and the responses, includingmy response to Rich's question. It might work for you. Good luck. David A.

Re: Depressed, fustrated and fed up!!!

Necee on 5/22/02 at 11:56 (084866)

You have been given some great advice here, so please continue to post and read all that you can, being educated on PF is the first step toward healing.
There IS light at the end of this long...long tunnel. Please remain positive, and don't give up on hope that you will improve.
We are all here for you.....
Happy trails to you...
Necee

Re: Depressed, fustrated and fed up!!!

nancy s. on 5/22/02 at 15:11 (084884)

dear yasmin,

others have given you great advice here. i'd like to focus a bit on the 'mental health' aspect of dealing with pf, which you mentioned.

the worst of my foot problems lasted for about two years, and now that i feel i have a life again, i often think about what those years taught me. i think there are lessons that will take a long time for me to realize fully, but maybe it'll help you in some way if i tell you things i wish now i'd done differently -- and hope and believe i would do differently if i ever go through anything similar again.

i would work hard to do the following, in order to avoid the deep depression i fell into:

* refuse to isolate myself in my pain and despair, by having friends over, calling them on the phone, confiding more in my close friends but also forcing myself to focus on their lives more too.

* get out more, even if only to sit in the yard -- but also go to more concerts (yes, it was hard to get in and out of the concert hall, but once there i was fine and the uplifted feeling afterward was well worth it); go out for pizza or whatever, just to be out and feel a part of the world; and whatever else is fun for you or has meaning for you.

* use the downtime at home (or resting-of-feet time) in ways that would keep my spirit feeling alive (doing artwork, listening to music, playing the piano, reading good books, whatever makes you keep your hope and heart open and looking forward).

* make sure that i continued to get dressed every day and not let the basic things go because of a feeling of 'what's the point.' there WAS a point -- but i let a lot of things go and it just encouraged me to isolate myself more.

* get professional help for the depression that slowly but steadily ate me up inside. i did finally get help, but i waited an awfully long time to do it -- too long. antidepressant medication was a beginning, and then therapy and a therapy group did me a world of good over a period of time.

in sum, in the face of losing control over my feet and their impact on my life, a focus on what i couldn't do took over. if i had it to do over, i would try everything i could think of to focus on the things i could still do and then continue to do them -- even if some days i didn't feel like it.

yasmin, i hope this helps you in some way. i can tell you, 'all is not lost!' i believe it with all my heart, because i thought that too, and it wasn't true. i don't for one second believe it's true for you either. all is not lost. keep your life going in every foot-friendly way you can, and keep exploring to find what works for you and the recovery of your feet. it takes patience, but you will get past the worst of this one way or another.

nancy

Re: Good points, Nancy! (eom)

Suzanne D on 5/22/02 at 18:48 (084910)

,

Re: Good points, Nancy! (eom)

nancy s. on 5/22/02 at 20:55 (084936)

thanks, suzanne -- i appreciate your points too!

Re: You have a beautiful name

Tammie on 5/23/02 at 07:53 (084967)

I am reading your post , and am happy so many friends here responded to you. This is the great part of the board. When you feel down and like there is nothing else someone here will offer some support along with some very good advice!!

Take your time our friend accept our offer of friendship and our shoulders to lean on and cry out your frustrations! All of us has been there at one time or another and it is a part of learning about this chronic foot deal! Dont be sorry dont be frightened . Ask all the questions you like and take the time you need to relax and allow yourself to let go the frustration enough to look and hear the advice many will give you! YES frustration and depression seem to go along with any chronic pain condition , you have permission to feel sad or frustrated you have permission to seek and recieve medications to help with this as it is important to your recovering. It will help you calmly better understand what is happening in your life and allow you some rest. I offer a hug in hopes that you recieve comfort from it.

Re: Depressed, fustrated and fed up!!! - Thanks to all

yasmin on 5/23/02 at 14:24 (085002)

Dear everyone,

Thank you for your advice and support, I appreciate it greatly.

Its really hard for me because I have a a 2year old to look after and a demanding masters degree course. I feel really isolated, all my friends and family are really fed up with me because they don't understand how difficult it is to deal with PF.

I am trying to stay positive, I have an appointment next week with a clinic that specialises in sports injuries including PF, so I am hoping for some help from them (exercises, advice on fooetwear etc).

Nancy - thanks for your advice for combating depression, I am going to try my best not to sink into darkness.

I hope all of you have a successful recovery and will soon be able to enjoy a full and active life, because u all deserve it!

thanks again

Yasmin

Re: Depressed, fustrated and fed up!!! - Thanks to all

nancy s. on 5/23/02 at 16:34 (085012)

hi yasmin,

you have a lot on your plate. hang in there!

almost everyone here has experienced what you're experiencing with friends and family. people who haven't been through this just have no idea of the impact on a person's life. also, it's difficult for people who haven't experienced any kind of chronic pain to understand what it does to one's outlook. people here do understand, so please stick around. i can't tell you how much this board and the people on it have meant to me throughout the ordeal. i don't know where i'd be now without them.

have you tried having family and close friends read scott's heel pain book, or parts of it that are especially relevant to what you're going through? it wasn't until my usually understanding husband read it that he really started to Get It and realize why my life had become so difficult. it made a world of difference. (thanks again, scott!)

i hope you have great luck with the sports medicine docs. after trying my pcp, a podiatrist (he was bad, certainly not all of them are!), and an osteopath, it was finally a sports med doc who first got me onto a good healing path. it took time (i had six months of physical therapy, for starters), but he was great and just what i needed. i hope the same for you.

nancy

Re: Depressed, fustrated and fed up!!!

Lisa G on 5/23/02 at 18:22 (085028)

hi yasmin,
i know how you feel totally! i don't know what will work for you, as nothing has worked for me, i've had it 8 years...but there are a lot more things you can try! so keep trying things...even after all this time...and having tried everything except surg and eswt...i'm still working on finding something that works for me...so keep at it sweetie...

please feel free to email me if you need to vent...

lisa
(email removed)