What I can provide, what we all provide, is a sympathetic ear and a place where we can go to share all the feelings that PF brings. I wish there was something concrete I could recommend, I hope you can take some comfort in knowing you are not alone, that sounds so wimpy when what you need is a way to make the pain go away.
I know the pain, the fear, the hopelessness, the anger, the frustration, the 12 gazillion other emotions that just seem to come off like layers of an onion. I'm so sorry there isn't more(anything) I can do to really help you feel better, maybe at least reading this has taken your mind off it for a minute.
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